Mrs Moody emotionless world

guess i did not get the job.. how i know???
1) no one called me after the interview
2)someone got offered by the company

I always tell myslef it is a very good opportunies to experience what is interview like..
to try my gut to be "interviewed"
i got what i want..
i really got what but why i still feel sad...
i had been asking myself
i found out that
I, annie ng, hate the feeling of being rejected....
I, annie ng, feel lousy being rejected
I, annie ng, feel hurt being rejected...

sigh
think think think..
jesus also rejected by the people,
why me, annie ng, can't take it..
think i am putting myslef before God.. my motive is wrong..
have to reflect about it...